Re-started my Shiva Nata practice this week. I was reading a post on zen habits about changing your life, one thing at a time. I mean, really. How many times have we all seen that before? Baby steps. Take it slow. One day at a time. One change at a time. It never worked for me before, but now suddenly it does? I don't know, maybe I was just in the right place, the right frame of mind, the right mood for it to finally sink in.

So the thing I started with was sleeping. I've spent the last two months going to bed at 10 instead of 11. A little thing. And I haven't done it every night. Sometimes I stay up to watch TV, or surf the Internet, or read a novel I don't want to put down. But I'm feeling the difference. And starting to think I can try something else.

I'm trying to make all the changes, at least at first, about doing more of something instead of less of something - I don't deal well with denying myself so I'm leaving that until I'm feeling really good about this process.

So this week the "one thing" is doing more Shiva Nata. I did it once two days ago, twice yesterday, and so far once today. It feels good. It isn't even remotely fast enough to be considered cardio, but even the slow movement makes me feel like I can breathe a little deeper. And I'm having some moments of "hmmm" again.

This morning's was about Induction into Mystery. Back story: Yesterday, I wanted to try to keep something in my head while I flailed. So since I was staring out the front door at part of my garden while Dancing, I tried to chant "garden garden garden" in my head the whole time. And this morning I wondered if my desire to learn about Edible Forest Gardens and Permaculture is a desire to be inducted into the mystery of those fields. To be part of the elite few who Have The Knowledge.

I'm not sure how I feel about that. But it's interesting.

I had another one about an hour ago, but I forgot about it when I started writing this. Oh well.